You know, reading some of these posts really confirms my hate for those pills. I was sixteen when I started on them and it was easy access to get high, id go in and steal them, got away with it more than I should have. I had an abundant load of them and in pill bottles stashed in my closet. I had taken them a few times bout 8 at a time and it was such a crazy trip, I wasn't a drug user at the time it was the first drug that I really tried, even before my beloved marijuana. Taking them made me have crazy feelings and it is truly indescribable.. Those experiences only got more intense as the years went on those pill bottles were gone within a few months, so I'd go steal more, got caught stealing them two times and never stole them ever again, I told myself I was done doing them.. That was when I was almost 18. I stopped for the most part after that time it was the summer and I was playin baseball on a team and was in a different city in a hotel every week so I had a different focus. But when I got home and I did something I didn't really do, which was buy them. I was up to two boxes, 32 pills, in a night and I'd do that maybe once a week. It messed me up for two days and the night I took them initially I would be blacked out. I only took them by myself because thats how I always had done it. I had so many different experiences. I got prescribed to zoloft which I found out mixed with dextromathorphan makes for a messed up time. It went on for a long time as just a regular recreational thing.. But it really damaged close relationships of mine. I lost the love of my life because of those things and have to deal with that every day. I'll be 21 this month and I've turned my life around. I was at the most taking 4 boxes within a trip which is without a doubt lethal times two really.. And mixing with 12 of the zoloft should have made me dead. I was an honor roll student in high school and a known baseball and football player throughout the community. If people knew about my addiction to these pills they would have never known. I had to put two years of my college career of baseball on hold because of them.. That's no joke I was red shirted for two years and just now have been off them for 2 months and its the first time in almost 5 years.. I only give credit to the Lord for helping me get this demon off my mind. I still think about it all the time. I do. I want to do them, even describing these times on this post make me want to do them. But I have to full fill my dreams and let my gifts not go down the drain because of my decisions to destroy my body. As of right now I have no effects from the pills and I can say I didn't notice any physical withdrawals like from other drugs I've heard of.. But I'm aware that most likely.. Without a miracle from God I'm going to have some serious consequences to my body for how many pills I was taking. But they can kill you, don't think you'll be lucky every time. Luck will run out. I'm lucky and my mom only tells me the reason I hadn't ever overdosed on those pills was because God knows if she lost her youngest son to a drug overdose she wouldn't make it.. Whatever that means I do know she's right. I was protected through those nights I was by myself and taking lethal amounts of drugs mixing and being in another world. I honestly wouldn't have known if I would have died.. But they will change your life in a negative way. That I can guarantee and there are others to verify that message I say. Don't do them. Please. My experience is legitimate and genuine and real.. I know there are others out there like me, and they need help, but the addiction is very, very strong. Get help if you have an issue w/ these c's.
