When I started smoking weed, I thought I was being "cool." The high felt good at the beginning and I felt as if I could talk to people more easily. My life seemed to be going great, especially my grades in college. I felt like everything was changing for the better.
After months of smoking weed, I started to lose the being "cool" aspect of weed. I no longer felt motivated to do anything but smoke. Grades were still okay but my goals/purpose in life faded away. I started feeling more depressed and very much alone. It seemed as if all my previous issues, that weren't that big of a deal, were now intensified in my mind. Feelings associated with my magnified and negative thoughts made me want to keep getting high so I could escape.
I started to resent everyone. I found myself being unsatisfied with life and I had constant mood swings. My close friends were distancing themselves from me and I started to have more paranoia. I felt as if I was running away from something and yet I felt I was the one chasing (I know it sounds crazy but that's what I felt). For whatever reason I started getting tired of the "high" feeling; I actually felt worse the next day.
To make this long story short, I slowed down and then stopped smoking weed completely. I eventually started to feel better emotionally. My mind was less clouded and I was focused again. I felt better about myself. My family and friends noticed the change. Weed took me to a place I don't ever want to revisit.