I smoke weed and it does make me feel a lot more paranoid and I start to think way too much about things, especially in social situations, I think about things people say too much and start to think about what they said and begin to believe they have alternative motives, and I say something and after I say it I think about what I said and think " oh my god, that was so stupid, why did I say that, they probably think I'm a complete idiot now" In the store if someone stares at me for too long I usually stare back like, "what the heck are you looking at" but when I'm high I tend to look away more, also when my step brother says some smart sh*t to me my comebacks are really delayed and sometimes I can't even think of any and just let him get over on me. But when I stopped smoking for 1 week ( after smoking for 2 years straight) I noticed I was a lot more confident and positive, and had a more uppity mood in general, the negative thoughts were a lot less frequent and I did not dwell on unimportant things, like something someone said that I think may have been a slick offense to me. I don't feel as confined when I've stopped smoking for a couple days, and I don't yell at my dog as much. I find more things to talk about and I laugh more and make more jokes too, I've been trying so hard to stop, but it is just so hard for me to, I smoke now, but try to do it just at night when I'm at home, which isn't that great cause when I'm laying in bed I dwell on more negative thoughts which prevents me from sleeping for a good hour. Also if you plan to resolve a problem with another person it's wise to stop smoking for a few days ahead of time, cause being high on weed really clouds your mind, and you lose track of thought and reaction time is a little delayed, and the energy you feel when you need it is so much more enhanced when you haven't smoked for a few days too. But I'd say from personal experience that weed definitely lowers my self esteem and my self image, and makes me more confined around people, so just do it before you do some art, or watch a movie, but if you try to clean the house while you are high it is almost an impossible task cause you'll stop in the middle of one thing to do another and just do a half a$$ job on everything, yeah, but it is really hard.
Holy $hit all of this is how I feel and I smoke every day.. I think about life to much. I think like WAY to much and I think it depresses you. But in the back of your head you think " once I get home ill get high and be alright, jump on some call of duty and have a great night" well when its all you do for 2 years straight you just turn into this idiot like me.. I think.. See I think way to much what the heck.. :/
Funny thing about doing that,your problem of low self esteem becomes even worse because you sit and dwell on the problems,which makes your thinking worse and once you come down nothing is the same,your more depressed than when you began its not good to self medicate and thats what its called,not to mention the forgetfulness you will have and keep,I wish you all the best,you are probably a good natured,goodhearted person,its hard to love oneself when we find so many faults in ourselves,but I say you will come out of this funk and things will get better.good luck.
I don't know what it is about weed, it makes you happy and have a laugh but the following day is horrible. You feel proper depressed and you don't know what to do.
Well it all depends if you're going through things in your actual life..one hit can make you happy but then yet when its all gone you feel like a low life!
I smoked for three years took it every day.. Mostly because I was sad n felt alone as it went on every thing became worse..... Now to day I have quite n have bin sober for at least 7 months and I'm feeling just as sad as when I quite and I miss the high even though it lasted about a hour...... So yes it makes things worse for your self
I get the same feelings too, and often.. I believe that marijuana can be used to enhance a "emotion", "feeling" or any sense for that matter. It depends how you use it. And don't let it use you. I 'discovered' that if you wait at least a few mins before the 1st hit, and just think positive things or get into something entertaining IN a good mood/mind frame, you can have great concentration and be in a good mood...I believe marijuana, cocaine, heroin, and other Natural recreational drugs are potions. They can be used for great things, like what GOD made them for. And self discovery, and many other things. But ALWAYS remember, EVERYTHING comes with a price. Nothings' free.
Not by itself, but like the other poster said, if you already have those feelings it can enhance them. On the other hand it can also be used to fight against depression, as it naturally provokes one to self examination and reflection.
When I started smoking weed, I thought I was being "cool." The high felt good at the beginning and I felt as if I could talk to people more easily. My life seemed to be going great, especially my grades in college. I felt like everything was changing for the better.
After months of smoking weed, I started to lose the being "cool" aspect of weed. I no longer felt motivated to do anything but smoke. Grades were still okay but my goals/purpose in life faded away. I started feeling more depressed and very much alone. It seemed as if all my previous issues, that weren't that big of a deal, were now intensified in my mind. Feelings associated with my magnified and negative thoughts made me want to keep getting high so I could escape.
I started to resent everyone. I found myself being unsatisfied with life and I had constant mood swings. My close friends were distancing themselves from me and I started to have more paranoia. I felt as if I was running away from something and yet I felt I was the one chasing (I know it sounds crazy but that's what I felt). For whatever reason I started getting tired of the "high" feeling; I actually felt worse the next day.
To make this long story short, I slowed down and then stopped smoking weed completely. I eventually started to feel better emotionally. My mind was less clouded and I was focused again. I felt better about myself. My family and friends noticed the change. Weed took me to a place I don't ever want to revisit.
Smoking weed has never made me depressed or low self-esteem. I like to smoke weed late at night then smoke a cigar lately during this time of finishing up my exams. Makes me relaxed and everything I studied sticks better.
