If you have spent this much time and know that it is terrible for your baby....don't you think it is terrible for yourself as well?? You should give your baby formula and get yourself clean. Then, if you are clean you can go back to breastfeeding. I think you should stop doing drugs and get help, for your baby and for yourself.
A baby needs a healthy mother more than it needs breast milk!!!
A baby needs a healthy mother more than it needs breast milk!!!